What this musician’s identity crisis teaches us about navigating change
September 11, 2026
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5 min readWhat this musician’s identity crisis teaches us about navigating change
When cellist Joshua Roman was six years old, he knew exactly what he would do for the rest of his life. "It wasn't a question. It wasn't a consideration," he says. "It was just that was what I was gonna do." By 22, he was the youngest principal cellist in the history of the Seattle Symphony. By 30, he was traveling the globe, playing the world's biggest venues, practicing six to ten hours a day even while bouncing between hotels and host family homes. His entire identity was wrapped up in the cello. Then long COVID took it all away.
The collapse of a lifelong identity
Roman grew up in Oklahoma City, where music and faith were inseparable. His father was a music director at their church, and Roman understood his playing as "a service to God." He left the church as a teenager, but the framework never fully left him: music had meaning because it served something larger than himself. For two decades, he kept that engine running on autopilot, saying yes to every opportunity, never asking whether the career he had built was actually what he wanted.
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What you'll learn
- 1 (01:04) **The Cellist Who Always Knew His Path** - Host Manoush Zomorodi introduces cellist Joshua Roman, who knew from age six he would be a musician, and frames the episode around his identity crisis.
- 2 (05:32) **The Pre-COVID Grind and the Pandemic Pivot** - Joshua reveals the relentless intensity of his pre-pandemic life and how the shutdown first redirected his music-making.
- 3 (09:45) **Contracting COVID and the Onset of Long COVID** - Joshua recounts getting COVID in January 2021 in Jacksonville, Florida, and the bizarre, debilitating symptoms that followed.
- 4 (12:51) **The Lowest Point: Putting the Cello Away** - After pushing through two final concerts, Joshua completely crashed and abandoned his 30-year daily practice habit.
- 5 (19:58) **The Spiritual Doubt Beneath the Physical Collapse** - Joshua explains that long COVID forced him to confront a decades-old spiritual void he had never addressed.
- 6 (25:14) **A Friend's Request Breaks the Silence** - A call from a friend asking him to play for a summer solstice party became the unexpected turning point.
- 7 (30:06) **Redefining the Relationship with the Cello** - Joshua describes the new, healthier approach to practice and performance that emerged from his breakdown.
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Original broadcast date: September 26, 2025.
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